When I saw my fertility specialist last week, he had me come back in on Sunday to have an ultrasound from the nurse on duty. The plan was to have my follicles measured so they would know approximately when I'd ovulate. Then, when I do ovulate, they can run some tests to make sure my lady parts are conducive to having kids. In fact, they'd also make sure my husband's manly parts were up to snuff for baby-making.
So I went in on Sunday and the nurse talked me through what she was looking at. She measured my follicles but said they were too small. She scheduled me to come back on Wednesday. I paid my $110 and left. I went back on Wednesday for the ultrasound performed by a different nurse. She didn't measure anything with the ultrasound machine but basically said there wasn't any change from Sunday. This is not good news. She had me scheduled for one last ultrasound (at least for now, anyway) on Saturday. She said that if there is no change by then, they will send me back to see the doctor for steps as to what to do next. And what the doctor will do, I don't know. I paid yet another $110 and left. But this time, I was very down. I have been feeling at least a little heartbroken since then, knowing that my body isn't ovulating the way it is supposed to be, even with me being on this medication now since January. Is adding Clomid the next step? Will I quit taking Metformin and start something else instead? Am I starting all over again?
I seriously don't know how much more of this I can emotionally (and financially) take. It's like I see a little progress and get my hopes up just to have them dashed to pieces again. I'm just about to the point where I want to throw in the towel and start the adoption process. Of course that's a huge chunk of change that we don't have right there, so I'm praying that I will find a job as well as answers to this infertility journey.
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I can't imagine being in your shoes. That is really too bad about the doctors expenses and no explaination of anything. I would demand more from them. Say "so what does this mean? Where do I go from here? Tell me why I keep coming back with no results." If they are going to charge you for such a little to no service, tell them they need to at least be clear with you on what you are paying them for. I'm sorry Debra! The Lord has a plan that none of us can understand right now, but I am sure however it is supposed to work, it will. Just keep your faith! Thinking of you...
I think they are telling me what they're doing. It's just taking a lot of time and costing a lot of money. The nurse said this ultrasound on Saturday will be the last if they don't see something because she knows it's not cheap. But she's not the doctor, so what the doctor decides to do, I don't know. What the doctor has told me about the upcoming treatment was based on tests after I ovulate. He wasn't expecting me not to be ovulating, and I wasn't either, which is why the ultrasound yesterday was so heartbreaking and frustrating.
I'm sorry that you're having such a frustrating time of it. I'm surprised that they haven't already added in clomid, as metformin + clomid is generally considered the gold standard of PCOS. I can't remember, were you tested for MTHFR? If not, I'd encourage that testing before clomid. If your interested in knowing more about MTHFR, e-mail me, there's a link on my profile, I can send you links to lots of good info. Hang in there, God will see you through this.
I think the reasoning behind it was that Clomid isn't covered by insurance that doesn't have fertility coverage (like mine). I don't believe I was tested for MTHFR. I don't know a whole lot about it, but I have only had one miscarriage, so I'm thinking there hasn't been a reason for testing for it. I can definitely ask my doctor about it.
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