Today Joy went in to see the pediatrician for her one month check-up. Her previous appointment was when she was 2 weeks old, and she weighed 6 pounds 14 ounces. She'd been gaining one ounce a day. I'd supplemented her for a few days after her very first pediatrician's appointment, and then I stopped. I thought she was getting enough breast milk because the pediatrician was satisfied with her weight gain. So I didn't do anything different.
And then I got something in the mail from Similac earlier this week. It talked about how frequently and how much milk babies should eat at each feeding. That's when I got concerned. I thought it was weird that some of her newborn clothes are still too big, but other people were saying she was getting bigger, so I figured maybe I just didn't notice it as much because I was spending all day every day with her.
When I was asked today if I had any questions or concerns by the nurse at today's appointment, I brought up my concern about whether or not she was getting enough food, especially when I heard her weight... she is only at 7 pounds 4 ounces, meaning she only gained 6 ounces since her last appointment 2 weeks ago! The nurse didn't say anything. But when the doctor came in, I talked to him about my concern, and he said she is definitely not eating enough. He told me she's not "malnourished," but she is "undernourished." And he said I need to supplement. But it's not something he wants me to do just for a period of time but rather for good.
I have been doing several things to try to increase my milk supply since learning she lost 11% of her birth weight between her birth and when she met the pediatrician 2 days later. I will keep doing them. But they just aren't really working enough. And now I feel like a terrible mother and a failure since I can't provide enough milk to give my baby all the nourishment she needs and I didn't recognize there was a problem and contact the pediatrician earlier to correct it earlier.
My poor baby! I feel so guilty and terrible!