Tuesday, October 14, 2008


I want to have kids. I don't know if my health issues are getting any better, but I definitely don't seem to be losing any weight. And I'm trying, I swear. I'm working out more than I have in quite some time, and I'm burning more calories than I was when I used to work out a few years ago (and lost a decent amount of weight very quickly). It's disheartening. I don't want to have kids while I'm as fat as I am, because getting pregnant will just make me fatter and make things that much more difficult. But we had talked about possibly starting to try before the end of the year months and months ago. Now it seems like losing weight is just an excuse to put it off even longer. Then there is everyone else with their opinions-- trying to tell us what to do when because they are experts.

So, I'm trying to figure out what is my priority right now and what should be my priority right now. I could use some divine intervention/guidance, but I have a feeling I'm going to have to work hard at finding an answer.


Shannon said...

I think a lot of the decision comes down to what's in your heart. But I also think the Lord's hand plays a part as well.
I was in a similar place as you a year ago. After Santiago I knew that I wanted to have another baby but I wanted to lose some weight first. I knew that health wise it was very important. I had Santiago June 20 and figured that we would wait until about Feb or Mar to start trying for another baby. Surprisingly enough in November I got pregnant. We weren't doing it like rabbits either, we'd only done it a few times. TMI? The reason I mention that is that I just think it shows that things happen if they are meant to. The Lord's timing and all. The good news is that I ended up losing a bunch of weight while pregnant (not in an unhealthy way at all) and my pregnancy went really well and I'm less than I was now after giving birth than before. So sometimes you've just gotta go with things. Health is a major issue but sometimes we also make excuses out of things when we don't need to. Go with your heart and some prayer and some faith I say. Maybe just see what happens? That's my two cents.

Debra said...

I know what you mean. And I have been thinking about it quite a bit. My friend also has PCOS and reported that some people's hormones change for the better when they get pregnant to help kick-start weight loss as well. I think as long as I'm feeling good enough that getting pregnant won't kill my energy or put me at any physical or medical risk, that's what's important.

As far as seeing what happens, I'd have to stop taking these POP birth control pills (or mini-pills) in order to get pregnant. So I have been wondering if maybe I should just stop taking them and see what happens.

I still need to discuss it further with Joe.

Shannon said...

I'd say if Joe is ok with it to just stop. And with maternity vitamins and iron pills you should be ok energy wise.