Thursday, November 20, 2008

The end of my rope

Lord, please bless me with patience. Lord, please give me the strength to endure when I feel like quitting, like giving up. Please help me not to reach through this phone and strangle this person because I'm already frustrated. Please help me get through this minute, this hour, this work shift, this day, this week, this month, this year. I need your help. I can't do this on my own. I'm ready to give up. I WANT to give up. I want to quit this job. I want to quit my callings. I want to roll up in a ball and go back to bed. I want to cry. I want to be held. I want to feel supported by someone other than my husband.

3 comments:

McKnights said...

I once heard someone say they would never ask for patience again after being told the only way to get it is to have your patience tried.

I know things are hard and giving up seems so easy but please dont give you have so much to offer everyone. I may be your big sister but I look up to you for so many reasons. I love you so much and I have the faith that everything will work out ok.

Crystalbell said...

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now with everything. I understand. I'm grateful you have your husband to lean on, I often think that would be nice to have. But I do know that sometimes it's not enough just to have one person, sometimes you need an entire village, please consider me one of the village people, in a non-YMCA sorta way, of course.

Debra said...

Thanks. I know things will work out okay. They always do. But why does it have to be so frustrating in the meantime? I guess I should just refer back to some of the awesome conference talks, like the "Come what may and love it" talk. I need to hear that sort of thing right about now.

And Crystal, it's not so much about support from people who aren't able to be involved in things, but from those who are. A lot of it was explained in my blog entry I just posted. But *muahs* to you!